Alright so we are going to try something different here with the color. I just picked something and am too laszy to change it. Hopefully if you read this you have good eye sight because it is kind of hard to read. So lastnight Kevin and I went out on a date. It was nice but I kind of was emotional. I'm not quite sure how to feel about the engagment thing. I am still so young and I think that is why he is kind of...not sure about it. I really don't want to pressure him but I am scared if we don't commit before he leaves things will fall apart with us. I KNOW what you are thinking, they can still fall apart even with a ring. Yes, they can. We decided to give eachother a week to think about everything then talk about it again. He got anxious when I talked about it, and when he gets that way he ignores you, or gets frustrated and I in return get defensive. So our lovely date night just wasnt the place to talk about it. I have been reading a lot of blogs and watching youtube Vlogs. There is good advice but I wish someone could just tell me some tips on how to keep it together. How to keep the relationship going. I don't want it to fade away. He is my best friend and my hero. I see a lot of military relationships end because of deployment/military,ect. I do NOT want to be one of those. So basically I am sending out an S.O.S . I just don't even have the slightest idea what to do . He will be gone for a yr and half.... how to you keep the spark going for that long without eachother?!
Help...someone....anyone
-Ashhhhh.
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